Friday, April 30, 2004
today was the english paper...it was alright, i hope....then like before reflections shankar was staring at me so i also stare lah! then she was like "did you read the comments i wrote on your reflection?" then i was like yeah and she said "better think about it carefully" then i'm like okkkay....haha...

pau2 so funny can! she forgot to bring her tie and her shirt was like mega oversized can! haha, then we were like bullying her haha...

then after school stayed in class for awhile...with mel, sarah, lily and poon...shaleen's bag was in class....then lily stole my phone! so i had to wait till shaleen came back...i was screaming for shaleen for like so long and she was happily buying nuggets in the canteen...then when shaleen came back, mel took my phone after i got it back from lily...so i pulled mel's shirt and pinafore till she was laughing on the floor...so i stole her bag and she happily walked away with poon and sarah...so i was happily sitting in class with lily and shaleen, waiting for mel cos i had her wallet and stuff...then dunno who wrote on the board with permanent marker! so we used the white board marker and went over the world...the sound was damn irritating can! but it came off anyway...eventually mel called lily then met mel at the foyer, returned her stuff ( i could've ran away with her wallet muahaha) then my mom came and i'm here....

you know, i'm getting damn pissed with ppl spreading rumours about karmila and i! there is nothing between us loh! like what the hell...irritated...
-56 faced death at 15:05

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Wednesday, April 28, 2004
today was fun...esp during pe...played floorball...damn fun...then when we played with mel that group, they all just stand around and talk...then rat the best can! whack my hand with the stick haha...then the rest of the day was alright...think i'm gonna fail physics....should have done the tys instead of the stupid eng compre which i though needed to hand in today....irritated...
damn excited for the cip trip...gonna go there and teach the kids...joined the lit committe cos i can cook and draw haah....
i really should be studying now...too lazy...maybe i'll sleep...
-56 faced death at 17:00

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Tuesday, April 27, 2004
today was alright...during the bio damn fun can...fei and i were "squishing' the layered cake...then it turned out so gooey can hahah...then we saw other ppl who just cut the cake into small pieces and stuff into the test tube...i think our bench was the only ones who did it hahaha....then after that we talked about how my mom and dad met...pau also shared her stories...then we were like 'pau, so how you want to meet your prince charming' then she was like 'wait and see' haha...fei is gonna marry a rich man, according to her grandmother or someone....then during english joanne, cheng2, fei and i were talking about food can...talking about the 'no signboard' restaurant, teo chu porridge, prawn mee and seafood...was like damn hungry after that can! luckly went home straight...me p, cheng2, pau, ikan, poon and bebe at the bus stop...made like soooo much noise can...lucky ppl never complain...then florencia also came up...we all talked so much...then came to p and my stop...dropped off and went home...then struggled with maths tuiton hw when my tutor was coming at 4 and i reached home at like 3+ haha...got some done, not all though...then here i am....i'm like totally alone at home with my maid who is cooking dinner...i think i better go and study for physics tmr...havent even started yet hahaha...
regretted not going for the maksim concert, he's a damn good pianist...listening to his song now...

tong: yos! havent told me about your adventures yet...looking forward to the hols so you can fill me in k! totally miss you sitting next to me, used to ALWAYS get scolding from ms chen haha....

sharon kee: sharon, thanks for the cake, plus you had to fork out $10 yourself...thanks!
-56 faced death at 17:51

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Monday, April 26, 2004
HOI anonymous! What the hell is your fucking problem? Stop taking up space in my blog! Fucking bitch dont even have the guts to write down your own name? This is such a waste of my time...it is an insult to my intelligence...i shouldnt waste my brain cells on a fucking idiot like you...

to hy: heyhey, really sorry for the vulgarities...just that i'm damn pissed...do well for mid-year yeah...
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Totally love this song hahhaha....


Eamon - Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back)

See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know that i feel

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Ya questioned, did i care
You could ask anyone, i even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but i do admit im sad
It hurt real bad, i cant sweat that, cuz i loved a hoe

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back
-56 faced death at 16:52

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Monday, April 19, 2004
to that f*ucking anonymous person on my blog: wth! karmila and i are alright already! Get your facts right before accusing ppl...f*uck off!
-56 faced death at 19:44

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Friday, April 16, 2004
today was like totally fun...k, slept at like 12+ last night(or rather this morning) cos was watching the OC...you know the guy Seth, he's the guitar guy in Gilmore Girls...kkk...then woke up at 05:40 did my stuff and reached tiong at 06:00...waited for lily whose bus didnt come haha...she wanted to hire a taxi but they all never see her then her bus came...then mel came then lily came...waited for serene and MCs to open...once it was open, we went in for a drink...waited until like 06:30 for serene(we were supposed to reach at 06:30 haha) then took train blah blah blah and reached the stadium...

did some house stuff then hy, rodelle and i ran across the field to put up our banner...by the time we had it up, the marching had started and we were like so out-of-place...i asked them if we should run across the field they said no haha...so we ended up walking along the side of the track...

blah blah blah then was at the competitors stand...didnt realise 4x100 was like so fast, wasnt prepared...then got shaleen to join 4x400 (only because ms martines was there to tell her haha) k..then fei, belicia, shaleen and i ended up running 4x100... last min we changes fei to be our last runner...fei passed to me then i was running with jia rui, JIA RUI can! she ran so damn fast, couldnt catch up with her...then passed to shaleen who ran into the other lane hahaha...i was like 'shaleen! wrong lane!' then laugh laugh...then belicia tried her best but we were a bit too far behing...ended up being 2nd...disappointment but we did a good job...shaleen too, considering she was our last min decision...
k, will continue later, have to eat dinner...

kk, back...then we spent the rest of the time before the 4x400 to convince shaleen to run...in the end she did and did a great job at that...i would've joined but i dont have stamina hahaah...then she pulled her tigh muscle...belicia (our stc massager) massaged her with counter pain...then cheerleading, to be honest, i hated almost all the songs they played haha...then marie won (not suprisingly) and we got second...heard we lost by like a singe digit...but hey! we won anyway!!!!!! MUAHAHAH!!!!!!! ISABEL IS THE CHAMP!!! Well done sharon! haha! we're like totally proud!

after that went out with the team to eat...actually not many ppl...then dan and i wanted to go town but the other ppl wanted to go jurong point...then dan and i didne care and just stepped on to the train...then ended up at cine and saw them happily walking into cine can! haha..then dan scolded them haha...wanted to eat long johns but ended up at pastamania...to be frank, i dont really like pastamania...it just doesnt have that environment that you'll enjoy your meal in...at there, alot of ppl walked past us, i mean alot...there was serene and weiling (who never sew belt haha) then sec 2s, then christabel and cor, then sharon and isabelians and kwan haha...then we were like totally late for training...we were at the town bus stop at 14:45...

reached school at like 3+ and walked up by the canteen way cos dan and i were wearing outside clothes and didnt want to get sent home haha...then had a mega fun training...playing game and simple ball passes...then ended...came home...and yeah! i guess thats it...i feel very long-winded haha...

btw, hadley, thanks for you chocolate m&m guy but he melted haha...thanks anyway.
-56 faced death at 18:42

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Thursday, April 15, 2004
...today was alright...the whole class was falling asleep during english and chinese...then my geog got so high can! damn happy! that was the highest i've ever gotten for geog this year...too bad it isnt counted haha...then during ss so boring can...kwong made us do this structured essay again...so xian-ing...TOTALLY CAN! Isabel leading!!! muahaha... but we'll know who'll win tmr...cant wait haha...

tonight planing to watch ami then the OC...gonna sleep at like 12+? maybe...then mel wantes to meet at 06:05 tmr! so early can! haha...but i'll be there...

watched america's next top model afew times...i think elyse should win...i mean she's like totally frank and all haha...everytime waiting for ppl to fight haha...

my teacher say my dog is very fat haha...fatter than before haha...you know, i think my dog is left handed...when she digs the sand she always uses her left paw...hmmm...i know i maybe lame but hahahaha...
-56 faced death at 18:26

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Wednesday, April 14, 2004
PE was so fun can! since pau couldnt do then fei was having training so banana and i lead the class...then that stupid ikan kept trying to overtake us so we run faster and faster...little did we realise that our class was way behind haha...then did warm up in a circle(like in netball), a change from the 4 rows...got weiwei to pass the msg around for us to sing a happy bday song for hannah...then when the 3C girls came, we sang again haha...then took weight and went for another round then played captains ball...chen yi damn power can! she stand there and blocked every ball that came her way...then went back to class...almost everyone fell asleep in eng and chem class...
during recess we all so kiasu, stand on the the chair to look at the olympics ques haha...then ran back to class to trace out our dragon boat...then had maths...physics...pc...

after school had house prac...was training with belicia on how to 'skip' and catch the baton...thanks belicia, will try to improve...then saw the cheerleaders dance...like so little of them got 'emotion' haha...Ng Lily always never smile haha...then went home and here i am...going to take a nap...tonite got CSI and AMI...


-56 faced death at 17:33

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Tuesday, April 13, 2004
man, i totally love this song...

Artist: Oleander
Title: Halo

And it's always little things
That to the surface brings
The comfort in the pain
The fear behind the smile
We lose along the way
The things we leave behind
Along the precipice
Of things we should not climb
And I'm the first in line
There's an anchor around my heart
Dragging me down
Behind the waves in silence I fall
There's a halo above my head
Spinning me 'round
'Cause I don't know if I'm alive or dead
A dagger in my hand
Bleeding me dry

And it's always little things
That to the surface brings
The space you need to breathe
Before the curtain call
The light that leads the way
Before you hit the wall
The mountain that you climb
Just to take a fall
For blind among the blind

There's an anchor around my heart
Dragging me down
Beneath the waves in silence I fall
There's a halo above my head
Spinning me 'round
'Cause I don't know if I'm alive or dead

There's a dagger in my hand
Bleeding me dry

And all we have to lose is time
And what lose we leave behind
Stay around and we will shine

-56 faced death at 18:19

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Monday, April 12, 2004
karmila: i dont expect you to react at all, considering you dont have a heart or feelings. At least i have a wider dictionary as compared to your single word 'fine'. I'm totally happy...this is one of the happiest days of my life (but tong wasnt in school today ) i will be glad to go to school tmr, i've got nothing to hide! At least im not a hypocrite. to hell with you!

what the hell is your problem? i was doing just fine till you came along. F*uck you lah! Get out of my life. I've got better things to do. Anything is better than you. My pride is way more important than you. Knowing you was the biggest mistake of my life. I cant believe i actually cared for you. All those words i ever said to you are all completely empty. My life has a meaning again now that you are out of it. Having your name on my blog is like poison in my blood...poison dilutes blood, causing it to be unpure. It is impossible for every drop of posion to be extracted. Just like how i will hate you for the rest of my meaningful life. Get out of my face. F*uck off and to hell with you!
-56 faced death at 16:50

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Sunday, April 11, 2004
'Til The Day
by Easyworld

"And the churches won't stretch up through tarmac,
Fly-overs
The city don't smell like they said in the brochure.
It's no longer surprising
When lovers and lawyers they lie.
But I'd gladly put up with this sh*t 'til the day that I die.

Well we've had our problems,
but hey hasn't everyone?
As soon as they've gone we'll just drag in another one.
I can see that you're sad
That you say there's, a lash in your eye.
And I'd gladly put up with your sh*t 'til the day that I die.

Yeah well.

I get the feeling I'm,
Just not cut out for this.
All strategies hidden agendas and politics.
If we can stand before
Legions of enemies, just you and I.
Then I'd gladly put up with this sh*t 'til the day that I die.

'Til the day that I die,
On the day that I die."
-56 faced death at 10:30

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Saturday, April 10, 2004
Why cry over spilt milk? I rather someone like me for who I am than I change myself for that someone to like me. Then again is pride more important than friendship? I've been down this road many times before and it is oh-so familar to me...

Totally! i cant print the heymaths thing...i'll have to copy it out by hand haha...my com printer so screwed up haha....

Hey burke! i finished catcher in the rye, good book...some parts very funny esp the last few chapters...will lend it to you on monday k...


"She didn't believe in angels until she fell in love with one"

"What if angels walked amoung us, and one of them fell in love with us?"

Heard of the movie 'city of angels'? Nice movie...sad ending...this angel(nicholas cage) fell in love with this mortal maggie... but the thing is she can feel him but he's invisible cos he's an angel...then, he gives up being an angel to be with her,the catch is that he will die cos he's a mortal. Then, when he's mortal, he and she get together then very happy...he was taking a shower when she was preparing food for him. he really wanted to try what a pear tasted like cos as an angel, he couldnt enjoy simple pleasures such as food. So she went to the store to get some pears for him. On the way back(she's riding on a bicycle) she gets hit by a truck. Then he senses smt wrong and runs to her aid. He got there just in time before she died... then he has to live the rest of his mortal life without her...damn sad...but i love the theme song by Goo Goo Dolls, Iris.

"And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cuz sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am"
-56 faced death at 17:46

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"Artist: Simple Plan
Song: Dont wanna think about you


Can you leave me here alone now
I dont wanna hear you say
That you know me
That I should be always doin what you say
Cause Im tryin' to get through today
And there's one thing I know

I dont wanna think about you
or think about me
Dont wanna figure this out
I dont wanna think about you
or think about nothin'
Dont wanna talk this one out
I won't let you bring me down
'cause I know, I don't wanna think about you, don't wanna think about you

When I wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
Cause I won't wait
Cause you won't change
And you'll always be this way
Now I'm gonna get through today
And there's one thing I know

I dont wanna think about you
or think about me
Dont wanna figure this out
I dont wanna think about you
or think about nothin'
Dont wanna talk this one out
This time I won't let you bring me down
Won't let you shut me out
'This time I know, I don't wanna think about you

Run away, run away, running as fast as I can
Run away, run away, I'll never come back here again
Run away, run away
(I don't wanna think about you
or think about me
Dont wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
or think about me
Dont wanna talk this one out)

I don't wanna think about you
or think about me
Dont wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
or think about nothin'
Dont wanna talk this one out
This time I won't let you bring me down
Won't let you shut me out
'This time I know, I don't wanna think about you,
Run away, run away ,I dont wanna think about you
Run away, run away ,I dont wanna think about you
Run away, run away ,I dont wanna think about you
Run away, run away "

-56 faced death at 11:02

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Friday, April 09, 2004
woke up at 8 today for tuition...teacher ended up cancelling on me...had breakfast, mom got me something before leaving me alone at home...ended up reading like 10 chapters of 'The Catcher In The Rye'...damn good book...partially cos the author is frank about everything, he hates practically the whole world and insults practically everyone...

today i'm dont feel like switching on my phone...no mood to talk... most probably go to church for mass at like 3...hopefully i wont fall asleep...was supposed to mug the whole day but didnt have the mood...

sis just got home..she's famished but i'm like so full...

think i'm going back to read my book...damn good book...
-56 faced death at 12:07

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Thursday, April 08, 2004
today went to cut my hair...like never cut at all hahaha...cos i kept my fringe...if i cut then i'll look funny haha...you know, my mom wanted me to cut my hair so short that can spike haha, my mom's so damn funky can cos last time she had really short hair...

today's geog test was totally horrible...then somemore the social studies was so difficult can! dunno how to do the source based at all...

JARS OF CLAY LYRICS
"I Need You"

"Strangely out of place
There's a light filling this room
Where none would follow before
I can't deny it burns me up inside
I fan the flames to melt
Away my pride
Do I want shelter from the rain
Or the rain to wash me way?

I need you, I need you, I need you
I need you, I need you, I need you
You're all I'm living for

I might sound like a fool
But I think I felt you moving
Closer to me
Face to the ground
To hide the fatal cut
I fight the weight
I feel you lift me up
You are the shelter from the rain
And the rain to wash me away

I need you, I need you, I need you
I need you, I need you, I need you
I need you, I need you, I need you
You're all I'm living for
All I'm living for
You're all I'm living for

Face to the ground
To hide the fatal cut
I fight the weight
Feel you lift me up
Can't deny it burns me up inside
I fan the flames to melt away
My pride
Only had a second to spare
But all the time in the world
To know you're there
You are the shelter from the rain
And the rain to wash me away

I need you, I need you, I need you
I need you, I need you, I need you
& I need you, I need you, I need you
You're all I'm living for
All I'm living for
All I'm living for
All I'm living for
You're all I'm living for"
-56 faced death at 20:42

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Sunday, April 04, 2004
Artist: Hoobastank
Song: The Reason


"I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you"
-56 faced death at 14:07

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Thursday, April 01, 2004
i cannot access the heymaths thing leh...our poor pau in hospital...we all miss her. today's heats suck...i didnt get anything plus i malu-ated myself haha...
yesterday's public speaking was so fun. The group was smaller so all of us had a chance to talk and we had tons of sweets haha.soooo bored....dont wanna go back to mugging....
my blue-black very pain now...all jean's fault muahahaha...
-56 faced death at 16:09

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